in just a few days, or weeks, or hours, you will be a big sister. you will take on the responsibility of being an example, of being a little more grown up, of being my special helper. i have no doubt that you're ready, despite the many tantrums and funja faces you give me daily. i'm so grateful we got to spend this 19 months together, alone. you've taught me so much about being a mom, and i owe it to you for bettering me as a person. you've shown me that forgiveness is key, innocence is beautiful, and that smiles make everything better. thank you for being my special baby girl and daddy's little princess.
i love how you stand on the window sill and blow kisses to dad when he leaves. how you are as excited about food as i am. i love how your hair grows so fast (you got that from your mama), and how you're taller than the rest of the kids (got that from dad). i love how you can make even a 9 month pregnant woman play "ring around the rosie" with you, and have her fall and get back up only to do it over again. i love that you understand more spanish than english. i love your bum in jeggings. i love how you absolutely love fruit (got that from mama) and would die without fruit snacks (from dad). i love that you show your teeth when you smile. i love how you snuggle up next to me right before bedtime to watch dora. how you only know how to say "no" and not "si," so when dora asks you a questions like "would you like to help me save the puppy?" you respond, "no." i love your smell. i love how much you love your dad, you even choose him over me, and i'm ok with that. i love how you fold your arms to pray with us every night.
you truly are my special girl. teach baby boy everything you know.
this is the month we become a family of four. i have complete mixed feelings. i love this little guy so much, but i'm terrified to repeat everything again, since it's still so fresh in my brain. ready or not, here he comes.